Remember when you knew what to do in your life ? Lol fun times …

I donated your shoes today.

You know the ones that stood catty cornered in your room… Your everyday tennis shoes… & the pair of stiletto heels….

I almost donated the few shirts I have left that I never wear but I just couldn’t do it….

Today poppop would of been 80.

I know we would of had a big party for him…

The fam threw me a surprise bday cookout. I haven’t had one of those since high school. You always threw the best birthday parties.


I should … we should be planning your 50th birthday trip.

I hope your traveling for me… I miss you so much

I feel so stuck.

This isn’t fair..

I wish I could talk to you.

Your voice is not as clear in my memory like it use to be I don’t want to ever feel like it was a dream..

Six years and 3 months… feels the same as 6 mins and 3 seconds…


Miss you mom.

grief journal

All I do is talk about how much I miss my mom & how Im high functioning through this depression. I just want to catch a break.

Feels weird that today is my dad’s birthday. Idk if it’s the fact I have no core memories with him forreal. Or is it cause all these memories my dad side are sharing today I have nothing close to those. Or maybe it’s cause ppl are still mourning a guy I never knew. Or is it cause I just learned when his birthday was when looking at an obituary. Can’t make this sh*t up.

Sometimes I feel like my life is a sitcom and I’m constantly the bud of all jokes.

Not going places because your broke & trying to make that not be known is so draining. I wish no was good enough for some people.


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